23rd April
Out of Mind

For my Writing 225 class we had to write a short-story that gave some impression of character we had sketched out in class previously. My take on it was to write something that explored the character, not necessarly went anywhere with a plot-line. In that respect, I did it very differently from most of the class. Let me know what you think of it.Beep. Beep. Beep.

A hand flashed out from a mound on the twin-sized bed and slapped the alarm clock, stopping the noise and shaking the rickety desk on which it sat. With a groan the mound of sheets dissolved into a boy who’s hair shot off in jaunty angles, which even the strongest moose couldn’t imitate. The boy rolled himself over onto his back and stared at the ceiling. “Whoever invented the alarm clock should be shot, beaten, stabbed, and thoroughly covered in icy-hot for destroying all the good in this world. Then again, just make him listen to an alarm for 24hrs,” he muttered, barely managing to keep a smile down.

The boy glanced at his alarm clock and realized that, once again, he would be late for school. With a shrug he pulled himself out of bed and opened his curtains letting a wave of sunlight stream into his humble adobe. He stretched, kicked around the pile of dirty clothes lying on the floor till he found his Adidas flip-flops and a reasonably clean pair of carpenter jeans. That done, he stepped into the bathroom.

There he took care of the essentials and turned to the floor length mirror that lined one wall. With a twinkle in his eye, he adopted a pose and said, “My name is Skylar Penden. You killed my father, prepare to die.” He giggled. The face that looked back from the mirror with a smirk was the face of his father, if he knew whom his father was. Long, dirty blond hair framed a face that was tanned with exposure to the sun. His upper body was well defined but not overly muscular; the standard shape of someone who did more running than lifting. Skylar was about average height standing at 5’9 and weighed close to 140lbs, none of it being fat. Sometimes his mother would hassle him about eating more, putting some meat on those bones but it was rare when she was around to care. If someone were to hazard a guess at his age, 23 would be a common answer but Skylar had yet to see even eighteen summers. He was young for his grade, filled with all the advantages and disadvantages that held.

Skylar took one last look in the mirror as he threw some gel in his hair, pulled on a t-shirt and tightened his shoes. With a passing wink at the mirror he walked downstairs to fix himself a quick bite to eat. A post-it note stuck to the fridge let Skylar know that yet again his mother would be late from work. His mom, Lori, worked for some dot-com startup in the next town over and pulled many long and stressful days for as long as he could remember. It paid the bills but time together always became a sideline event. Ever since he could remember, Skylar had really been on his own, he liked it that way. Looking at his watch he grabbed a pop tart and headed for the garage. “Shit, I’m off to a great start today,” he thought to himself. With that, he climbed onto his 10-speed and began the short ride into school.

The sun sat low on the horizon and the dew lay heavy on the grass as he peddled through the small town. The fall air was still warm enough not to need a jacket but had a disturbing freshness to it, a warning that Ole’Man Winter wasn’t far off. Perfect weather for a game of soccer Skylar thought to himself as the high school building came within view. He hopped off his bike as it coasted into the rack, not even taking the time to lock it up. No one would steal it. Hell, crime was virtually unknown in this sleepy little town west of Harrisburg, PA. With a population of less than 5,000 total people, everyone knew everyone else and the farmers had rather improper relationships with their stock or so the tourists joked.

Not that those thoughts ran through Skylar’s head as he casually strolled through the main doors of his school. He waved at the secretary at the front desk, ignoring the request for signing in and the late pass. The secretary behind the desk just sighed and back to her forms; no one really bothered him, teachers or administrators. Here, in this town, he was as close as you could come to an untouchable in the system. That’s how it was here. If you were the star of some sport, the star of something, any transgressions were quickly overlooked. Everything could be overlooked as long as you performed. He shook his head, bothered once again by the absurdity of it all as his feet carried him past his locker and into his first period biology class.

The late bell had already rung some fifteen minutes previously and the teacher, Mr. Kimmely, gave him quite a look as he breezed in and sat down. Skylar just shrugged and with the most innocent look possible on his face said, “My car wouldn’t start. Damn Japanese manufactures and cheap Mexican labor.” The class laughed. Everyone knew his mother drove the German sports car and he saw no need for his own car. Skylar just smiled, shook his head and looked at his desk. As the classes attention shifted back to the blackboard his smile quickly faded from his face. It was so easy to feed the crowd, to give them what he wanted, so simple. He sighed.

The rest of the class passed uneventfully with the teacher drowning on in a manor guaranteed to send even the hardest convict begging for the chair. Skylar’s eyes glazed over and his thoughts drifted far away. It was the state of highschoolery that to the untrained masses seems to be an almost mystical state of presenting the face of listening to a teacher when in fact, dreaming of yellow brick roads and dancing dwarves and magical flying rodents. These rodents were not on Skylar’s mind this morning. Rather, his thoughts were running and re-running thousands of situations for the games tonight. Ways to win, ways to lose, and ways to get hurt; hurt so he could finally get away. Away from everything this town forced upon him.

Ring. Ring. Ring

The teachers chalk ceased shrieking against the chalkboard as the bell signaled the end of class. Skylar thoughts came back to the present as he pushed his chair in and began to walk towards the day. Mr. Kimmely intercepted him before he could make it out and wished him the best of luck. Skylar gave a perfectly calculated smile and muttered some necessary trifles to the teacher and left as quickly as he could for his next class, Philosophy. He could stand it when they did that to him, when they pushed up something that wasn’t all that important. Skylar sighed again and walked into the second floor library and took a seat.

Normally, Philosophy was one of Skylar’s favorite classes but today he couldn’t focus. The dialogues of Plato could be interesting and the Allegory of the Cave was the story of American civilization, but not today. In reality, Plato got it wrong. The cave was a great place to be because you could just slink away, hide in the shadows. It was only then that Skylar realized the irony of today’s class, the dialogue of a dead man surrounded by dead books organized by librarians who were little more than the walking dead. He laughed, and just smiled as the teacher glanced his way. The irony was beautiful, exquisite; the exact type of thing Skylar appreciated most.

He sat down at one of the tables and kicked his feet up. Looking at his fellow classmates he grinned, today he was in luck! Lisa Williams was not here; he could be alone in his thoughts and not bothered. The grin on his face quickly faded however as she walked through the door. Most would say Lisa was beautiful, well possessed with a southern charm, Skylar just considered her annoying. She spotted him instantly and began to walk towards his table. Skylar shrunk into his seat, wishing he could sink even further into the floor and just disappear. Away from her, away from everyone.
He wasn’t so lucky however, and she sat down directly across from him. With a happiness and flair that made his teeth grind, she said hello to him. He gave another of his fake smiles and hoped she would get the hint that he didn’t want to be disturbed. As Skylar did he realized that she never got the hints. It was like miming to a wall, or someone in love. She’d been this way ever since he’d been dared to kiss her on the playground in 3rd grade. Some people just don’t know when to let go, he thought to himself.

“Hey,” she chirped, “do the homework?”

He shook his head in the negative and attempted to concentrate on the teacher’s ramblings about Plato.

“I didn’t see you running this morning. You feelin ok? I mean you got the big game against central tonight. Don’t want the star player all hurt and…stuff.”

Skylar looked up from the table and straight into Lisa’s. His eyes burned with an intensity that made Lisa recoil. Within his eyes she saw something she’d never seen before – a pain, a deep, overwhelming weariness. She saw that moment within his eyes what he tried to hide from everyone. Lisa knew then Skylar was not the boy she thought, not the boy that anyone in that little town thought. For the first time in her life, Lisa had nothing to say. Skylar appreciated the silence as they both turned back to the studies at hand.

Late that evening, Skylar laid on his tiny little bed and ran through the events of the day in his head. He ran through his game-winning goal in the game that afternoon. He ran through the various classes and what work he would have to make up or copy for the following day. He even thought about his mother and how she was late again and probably wouldn’t be home until the very wee hours of the morning. Not once did he think about the events with Lisa, not once did he think about what he might have given away. It was out of mind, out of sight. For everyone else thought Skylar perfect, why shouldn’t he?

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21st April
The Burning Right & Comments

For some time now Tealart has been getting some rather interesting comments posted. Normally, they’re part of the great Google juice - someone puts a search into Google and manages to turn up here. What do they do? Well, they see our decidely pro-gay leanings and then leave a nasty turd somewhere in the comment pages. Thankfully, Quarto actually has a pretty good comment management system (Unlike MT) and I normally get to them before they’ve been there for more than a day. I always thought it was sad, those comments, until I read this article. Its about a birthday party:

Yesterday we went to a birthday party in Oakland for a one year old. We go to a lot of these nowadays, having a kid around that age ourselves (actually 14 and a half months). There are certain recurring themes: the spotless house, the “baby buffet,” the representatives of the extended family, the youngest guests delighting in unfamiliar toys, the slightly jealous older sibling, the birthday boy or girl – only vaguely aware that they are the guest of honor – placed in front of the cake and instructed to make a mess. Parents of young children are a tribe, and the First Birthday is one of their dearest rituals.
One would think it’d be a glorious event, this birthday party. However, far be it from the readers to let it be a glorious party. Why would they have issues? Well, its a gay birthday party…held by gay parents. Now, obviously that doesn’t bother me one bit. Its the comments that bother me.
Sure, that sounds lovely. A nice party with one year olds and joyous parents. Swell. Norman Friggin’ Rockwell.

Let’s see what happens to these kids as they grow up. Let’s see how well-adjusted they all. Maybe they’ll be fine. Maybe you’re right about gay parents just being parents. But maybe not. Maybe you’re very, very wrong. In either case, it’s way, way too premature to declare this experiment a success.

Save the victory lap for when you have some evidence that your hypothesis is correct. For now, all you have is wishful thinking, and that goes double for your amen corner.
Posted by: Skeptical at April 20, 2004 08:24 PM

Comments like that make my blood boil. They show an ignorance on a scale I cannot even begin to comprehend. They show the mental destruction of the American mind, how far we’ve slid and how far we have left to go. There are many, many more comments there. Ones that I wish were deleted because they show the true horror of a blinded population - a population that is quickly growing old but not fast enough. Not fast enough so that they cannot do damage for my generation. Or the next generation, my children.

At the same time, I know those comments should exist. They should always be there, they should have their place. They contribute something, in some way, whether it be for historical record on varied viewpoints or the idiocy of the American right. They should all exist for another fundamental reason - Freedom of Speech. As much as I can’t stand gay bashing and homophobes and all that they represent, it is their right to say what they want. As long as no harm comes to another individual or their rights are imfringed in some way.

So, even though I’m angered and saddened by said comments, I’ll leave you with one thought. The thought of your first birthday party, which you don’t even remember. The thoughts of playing in paper, blowing out candles and memories being made for parents and family alike. Good memories, glowing memories. Memories that hopefully more families and children will have as another sect of society gets the recognition they deserve.

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Colombine - 5 Years Later

http://www.salon.com/mwt/feature/2004/04/20/columbine_anniversary/print.htmlExtremely good Salon article that debunks alot of myths and theories about Colombine

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16th April
Gay Marriage - A New Take

Last night when I was taking a shower (I do my best thinking there actually) I came up with a wonderful idea that I’d like to share with everyone. While the arguments and conversations have somewhat died down as of late, the topic is gay marriage. Or more specifically, how ludicrous the entire discussion is.

My argument began as such. This country was founded on the concept of separation of church and state, independence, and free speech. Granted, our forefathers kinda bonked it with the first part when they included “In god we trust” and a few other things in our national symbols. Though ya can’t blame them for One Nation, Under God; thank the fifties for that one. Anyways, if the church and state are supposed to be separate then damn well make them separate – abolish marriage. Now, before all the tomatoes your holding impact upon my furry forehead, let me explain.

Marriage itself is a religious conception, the “holy” matrimony of two individuals, till death do us part, yada yada yada. Too bad with the way America is today, 54% of all marriages end in divorce. If we consider that the church should stay out of government, and that most marriages end anyways, lets shift the focus. Lets take the concept of civil unions and apply it to all “marriages.” A civil union will infer upon the two persons all the rights and titles that marriage always contained before, including the tax benefit or lack thereof. However, since religion is no longer ensconced in the process there can be no objection to it. It becomes a moot point, morals and self-esteem and all that bullshit is pleasantly side-stepped.

Lets take the concept even further however. To get a license from the state, or whoever gives out the civil-union licenses, you must provide witnesses to state that you have been together for at least two years. Why two years? Well, it’s a longer period than most marriages and it at least signifies the fact that, for the time being, both people are significantly in love with each other to make a marriage of a reasonable amount of time possible. Whats a reasonable amount of time? Well, eight years. Because at the end of eight years they’ll have to get their civil union license renewed.

I can sense a lot of skepticism there, but think about it. Most marriages don’t even come close, so why assume that civil unions would be any different? However, this way you avoid the whole nasty, tepid divorce court proceedings. If your not happy, move on, completely free of all legal and religious repercussions. However, if your game for a few more decades, get it renewed. It shows your devotion and love to the other person. Your sticking it out, go you!

There will always be those people though who want a “true” marriage and they can have it. Wait, didn’t I just say abolish marriage? Well, marriage is a religious concept right? We don’t want to “sully” marriage right? So give it back to the hands of the religious people. A marriage will carry NO weight outside of the religion that marries you. I know two people right now, both under 21, who are married under the Wiccan religion. However, it carries no real weight in society, only in their hearts. If they wanted to truly get married under this concept it would take a simple trip to the courts or whatever to be realized. A “marriage” then would have bearing only within your own religious background, with all the advantages and repercussions your religion bestows. That way, if your Catholic your truly fucked when it comes to divorce. You can get out of it in the eyes of the state, but good luck getting “married” under the eyes of the church.

What do people think? Could it be reasonably done? It mostly side-steps all the arguments I’ve seen presented so far. No discrimination on anyone really, you could marry a cat as far as the states concerned.

**Update** - Ya know, as much as I hate France occasionally they actually do things that make sense and are good. Read about Marriage Lite for what I’m talking about.

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13th April
AppleTech Support

http://docs.info.apple.com/article.html?artnum=25741Apple’s brilliant idea behind tech support. Recognize the problem and then promptly ignore it with a joke offered as a solution. Yes, I suffer from this problem among many.

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2nd April
A New Virus - You\'ve Been Warned!

There is a new virus. The code name is “WORK.” If you receive WORK
from your colleagues, your boss, via e-mail, or from anyone else — do
not touch WORK under any circumstances. This virus wipes out your
private life completely. If you should happen to come in contact with
this virus, take two friends and go straight to the nearest bar. Order
drinks and after three rounds, you will find that WORK has been
completely deleted from your brain.

Forward this virus warning immediately to at least five friends.
Should you realize you do not have five friends, this means you are
already infected by this virus and WORK already controls your whole
life. If this is the case, go to the bar and stay until you make at
least five friends. Then retry. I think I have five friends but am
not entirely positive . . . . . so I’m headed for the bar anyway.
Never hurts to be safe.

Meet me there!

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